we rearranged the apartment last night, by which i mean that avraham pushed everything around while i pointed to where i wanted it to go. : ( it's so hard to not be able to help. i mean, i was upright for longer than i should have been, and that was dumb, but so is using a computer, cause i can't be lying down while i am.
i'm SO damned impatient, it's a wonder i ever heal.
anyway, this week gave me time to think about stuff. the primnary thing i realized is that i've always been quite bad at the whole bikur cholim bit - i know people get bored or lonely, but i never take the time to visit.
after a week of very few people taking the time to visit, i can say without a doubt that's going to change. i('m not trying to make anyone feel guilty) it just sucks to be alone, to have to figure out what to do for food when you really shouldn't be standing and cooking for half an hour, to entertain yourself when you're alone for 42 hours over the course of 4 days. at least i have avraham in the morning and at night. i can't imagine what it's like for people who are truly alone.
i think that this may be the first time that i was out of my parents' home and laid up with somethihng where i was concsious the whole time. epstein-barr is alittle easier, beacuse you don't have the energy to be awake most of the day.
i also realized this week that there is no WAY i could ever consider living in washington heights for real.
oh, also, for those who are wondering, i'm writing from the "ofiicial OU laptop". yay yay to johnny for both visiting and bringing me some freedom.
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