Refael Meir Chaim ben Leah Devora

Meir, who grew up with Avraham, was in a serious accident on Friday.  The news as we've heard it is that his leg was amputated and there is what appears to be an infection spreading to his heart.

Please daven for him and his family - he's our age and is the father of a little girl.

for the last time

i did not get an epidural.  i did not have any medication until many hours after gus was born when orly bought me motrin for the nursing contraction things.  i also do not think i'm better than anyone out there, so can we all agree that i;m not judging you and you won't judge me?   the discussion of why this was any of your business will wait until i'm not spending half my day with my nipples in someone else's mouth.

AVS!

i miss you!

this being away thing sucks.  everyone who says that going to your mother after you have a baby is a mechaya is mamash retarded.

i want to be home with my husband!  this SUCKS!

and my sister's making aliya in 2.5 weeks and i want to cry.  instead, i will take a nap.

peep

i've turned into a milk producing vampire.  poor squish was so thrown off schedule by all the travel (and the people!  they love to touch her!) taht we were up intermitently nursing last night from half an hour after i got into bed until it was light outside.  because i don't have a clock in my room, this is now how we measure time.

i want to bite the people who reach into her carriage without asking.

on friday night, someone we know (who thinks she's much closer with us than she actually is) was around and while i was adjusting gus' blanket, reached into the carriage and tucked the other end under her.  which would be sweet if we were friends, or relatives, or even people who have spoken more than twice by choice.  but we're not.  so it was invasive and rude and BY THE WAY my 4 day old?   not so much immune to whatever crap is on your hands, so back the fuck away, ask before touching, and WASH YOUR HANDS!!!!

and then this same girl on shabbat afternoon, while hanging out near me, overheard me asking a friend if i could bite people who touch gus without asking and she goes "oh, totally!".  consider your neck to be gaping and spurting, then.

of course, none as funny as the moron who leaned over (placing her hand on gus - why would you lean on a 5 day old?) and commented on her 'beautiful tan'.  that's jaundice.  you can get the look yourself - keep whoring yourself  out and you'll get hep B.  or you can use cheap self-tanner and achieve the same result.

so i'm with my parents and family for a little while and avraham is not here and i've cried about that a fwe times already.  i'm also tired and dehydrated, and more inclined to cry because i just gave birth.  so long as we're all aware.  it's funny - i'll start crying, but i'm still calm, and i'm apologizing "please ignore the tears, they have a mind of their own".

i walked outside 10 minutes ago and the sun hurt my eyes.  my baby is so cute, i can't really complain.

awake and loving it

i'm up with squish, who has been nursing on and off all night.  she's so cute, and so good.

watching bbc world news covering the israel/lebanon issue, and i have to say that daniel taub is doing a great job of fending questions.

i'm HUNGRY.

i'd like to point out that my darling daughter (hee) was born at 7 lbs 2 oz, and she was a full 3 weeks early.  one slim day away from being a preemie.  imagine if she'd gone to 40 weeks!  i don't know how i would have done it.

we're in the living room at the moment.  she's wearing a sleep sack over her sleeper, arms thrown up next to her head like she's just ben surprised, and she's SO CUTE!

she's also a little weird - i've been putting a hat on her to keep her warm (for all the birth weight, she's actually very little).  every time i put her in the pram, she scooches down until the hat slips over her eyes, then goes to sleep.  at one point when she didn't have the hat on, avraham reported that her arm was flung over her face, covering her eyes.  just like her uncle hadar.  : )

Gus Face

excuse me for thinking she's cuter than your kids  : )

Gus