update:

"I'm happy to report that Dr. Michael Harris (the pediatric oncologist
who needed a liver transplant because of hepatitis acquired via a
needle stick) got a liver yesterday, and had the transplant surgery
late yesterday afternoon. It's still too early to know about potential
rejection or other complications, but this is obviously a great
development that I wanted to pass along to you. Thanks for your
tefilos, and I hope all is well with you and yours."

a

there's something just so right about sitting with avraham atthe end of a stressful day - just look at him lightens my heart.  it's amazing to sit back and be happy, and catually be comfortable with that.

i love you

blood sugar crash

during cool-down stretches i suddenly felt light-headed and took a break.

then i felt even worse on the way home, vision starting to blur.

landed at the front door after the most tortorous walk home, wanting to puke violently.

managed to not pass out.

yay!  yay for having messed up blood sugar and yay for not drinking enough water and yay for not eating enough food and yay in general for being a total idiot.

crash outside of toronto

it's not clear exactly how, but a plane that was landing in canada basically fell of of the runway into a ravine, where it went into flames in seconds. eye witnesses saw the plane land successfully, then back up - a lightning storm hit as they were landing. the plane cracked in half as it fell, so it's unclear who if anyone could have survived. the plane is still burning, with occasional fireballs bursting out.

there is a very good chance that no one has survived, but there have been reports of survivors who managed to get out and run, calling from under a bridge for help.

my heart goes out to everyone on that plane and all their loved ones.

I'm glad to update (11 PM) that it seems everyone survived!

suzuki is on a roll

ferenza!

god, i would be embarrassed if i had to act in that commercial...  unless they gave me a free car.  *grin*

my grandmother's on her way back to israel this week, and i have not yet found a way to open up and have a relationship with her.  i've  been closed off for 10 years.  it's like this other person lives in my head, blocking off my emotions when it comes to her.

it should be illegal for commercials to be so loud.

beyond amusing

i found Biblical Sandals, where the shoes are sold to matriarchs, partiarchs, and little lambs. hee.

trials and

i am not only no longer skinny, but it would be a kindness to call me chubby.

i ran into tj maxx with my family, and looked for skirts.  i found a huge collection of beautiful skirts, but none larger han a size 8.  last i wore a size 8, i was in israel (shortly after high school, when that picture of me was taken - look how young i was once!  hee).  all the skirts that were in my size looked like they had been made for old people who were a little blind.

i got really annoyed and set out to find beautiful clothes for larger women, and here's what i came up with:

http://www.casual-plus.com/ - gorgeous skirts and dresses
http://www.avenue.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/Home?storeId=326&langId=-1 - small selection but great prices
http://catherines.charmingshoppes.com/home.asp
http://www.silhouettes.com/default.asp
http://www.coldwatercreek.com/Home.aspx
http://www.barriepace.com/bp/default.asp
http://store.nordstrom.com/Default.asp?origin=tab-logo

just be careful to search within your own size - there were a few times when i accidentally wandered into the too large area.

you can always turn to JC Penney or other similar places that have some clothes for the non-stick variety, but i wasn't crazy about the selection.  i also felt that the clothes they list haven't changed since i was a kid.

the thing i really like about the places that i found is that they all accomodate for chests, hips, and tushes.

i was into old navy's larger stuff for a while, but i realized that they take the same cut for a size 2 and just extend it, as if women grow proportionately everywhere at once.  simply not true.  that's why their pants look SO bad on bigger people - they adhere to the backside like a slightly shrunked second skin.

anyhow, this is all because i'm going to a wedding, so here' my outfit:

with a camel seude jacket over it.  now all i need is a hat and shoes.  yay!

side rant - size 12 and above is considered plus size in most stores.  way to make people crazy.